Here’s a Throw Back Thursday photo of myself at Dore Alley Fair 2014.  

This photo reminds me of an important life lesson I “re-learned” that summer.  You see, I had a crush on these two guys for a long while.  They knew it, too.  When we talked, my mind sort of fogged over. This happens when I am really into someone including the image/role that they’re portraying (“Totes Dom Top”) and the hot gear they are wearing. I got nervous and awkward around the 2 hot men flirting with me at the street fair as we drank warm beer…. freezing up several times in mid conversation.    DERP!  

I’ve done this all my life.  I call it the “Peter Parker meets Mary Jane” syndrome.  You remember that scene from Spider-man, right?

Right at 00:25

But, the lesson I re-learned… for like… the billionth time that summer?   Sometimes, especially at kinky street fairs, S&M can just stand for… “Stand and Model”. Despite the flirting, they weren’t really into me. They just wanted the attention and enjoyed leading me on because it made them feel and look good to others.  I mean, the fair was closing and I still had not been ordered to lick any boots nor were plans made for later (despite hinting)!  Wake up, Ruff!   

I still look back and laugh at this experience.  My pooooor widdle heart was broken that day!  Awwww… Poor Ruffy.  (Don’t worry, I got over it) .    This photo is a favorite because it reminds me to be realistic.  To remember that some guys are just there to “Stand and Model”.

….You know, looking back, it also really didn’t help that Daddy Richard had me in chastity for 2 weeks prior to that day at Dore Alley Fair….  

:-O